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Is it really true
That everything that shimmers
In this world
Will fade
I’d like to believe
That the sun of a smile
Will always shine
Even if it’s just
In my own orbit…

Sometimes. Time moves so fast, it scares me. Then other times. I look back and time hasn’t changed at all. I watch the hands of the clock move the seconds of time away. I panic. Where is time going?…

I long for things,
I left behind,
But have to wonder,
Were they ever really mine?

You move so slow,
You cut so deep,
It makes me believe,
You were just that way with me.

Anxious for change,
Sick of your stagnancy,
Just begging for breath,
Ready to leave but scared to break,

When I walk and don’t turn,
Just promise me this,
Appreciate how I stayed,
Even when I couldn’t fix you.

Stayed up ‘til the lights came on,
The candles all shrunken to drips of wax,
Stars muffled behind smudges of cloud,
An imagined glow on the horizon,
Could hear the rumble of the surf…

There’s an anger deep in my stomach that I can’t shift or find the cause of…

The pain that descends heavily,
It breaks and doubles over,
Knowing no silence or peace,
Just the rip of screams.